i miss him...

i miss him. he was my hero ad my life. the person who got me through the day and the strong arms that picked me up and put me to bed every night. the loving caring person who would throw me above hi head and play fun games with me. we played football, baseball, Frisbee, soccer, anything. we would go ice skating then to a movie. those where the best days. this guy, this hero, he was my dad. i live by the memories and strive for the future. my parents got divorced when i was 3.it wasn't hard for me at the time because i didn't know what was happening. after the divorce i still got to see him everyday. half the day i was with him, other half with my mom. as time went on it shortened. one day my dad started dating again. she seemed like a nice girl, but when i started to know her, i didn't like her at all. this is normal for little kids. she didn't like kids i didn't like her. she took over my dad and now i wasn't the only girl in his life. soon after my mom starting dating a guy she worked with. he was a nice man and very respectful. i liked him he was there for me in my life. as i grew up my dad grew farther apart but the love was still there. the time spent together grew less and less. a few years later my mom and now step dad got married. i was really happy and new he would treat us good. a few years later... my dad and step mom got married. i was no happy. they didn't even ell me about the wedding. then they lied about the location. i could have easily gone... but nooooo. i was angry with my dad for a while-his whole family was. i focused on school and sports and got through it. my step dad is the one who raised me so i consider him my real dad. i am fortunate to have two. now i realize that all that is past. me and my step mom are on good terms. i see my dad 3 times a year, which is really hard on me. but i handle it. my step mom makes him happy, if thats how he wants it i love it to. people change. life goes on.

somethings have changed for the better. it was just our alone time i needed.

i know all my parents love me with all there heart, thats what helps me through the day. everybody has there hard times. but thats just part of this roller coaster we call life..

Soccer against tolt.

Soccer game against tolt. it was an away game, about an hour and a half drive. Tolt is near carnation. on the bus i sat by justibna and cortney. when ever we are together we always have a blast. while we where driving we took about 300 pictures. after we arrived varsity and c team unloaded off the bus and jv went to a differant feild. i really liked the feild we played on. it was turf but it had a good feel to it. the ground was smooth and had good traction for the ball. the games finaly started, after c team played varsity takes the feild.

I start center forward, striker, like usual. the whistle blows and the game begins. we score in the first 5 min. the game has good defence but our team is beter. we have good communication and want it more. by halftime they have me completely marked. we work as a team and pass the ball. once again cougars come out on top!